...waves...

My grief has been like waves ..

some small moments of emotions..

others huge to the point knocking me to my knees..

others..

it feels like you cant breathe. 

Just a broken mess.. 

I'm slowly learning that its hard to control the waves ... 

I just have this huge fear of letting the pain and hopelessness in loosing her..

and never being able to make it out alive from this.. 

Those huge waves scare me.. 

I know in my heart her love will guide us through..