?!

the waves hit my shores rather hard today..they talk in riddles and it all makes no sense..how can they be satisfied with the answer unknown it just happens.. why isn't there an outcry to find reasons why.. instead of being a statistic why don't they take that information and research why the hell this bullshit keeps happening to families. i desperately search for a medical reason.. it couldn't just be as random as this seems to be. I was instructed to have faith..i don't know what the lesson is in this.. GOD I KNOW I'M STRONG..BUT WHY MUST WE TEST THIS THEORY OVER AND OVER!!... i have the right to question him right now.. he knew how much she was wanted..how much our love was poured into her..she was ours!! why did you need her!! all i wanted was her time.. nothing more!! i wanted to hear her cry..i wanted to kiss her face...hold her..teach her...learn from her..now we just have questions..confusion..and sorrow.. i know he can handle me being mad at him.. She is Loved..She was Wanted..She is Ours?! ...