...A Swayful Month Two...

today marks the second month with out you KristaLeigh..

at times i feel like pieces of my heart went with you 

Sweet Angel,

momma misses the sound of your heartbeat dancing with hers..

momma misses the joy in her heart..

momma misses your kicks.

momma misses your laughter that daddy brought out in you..

momma misses talking to her belly..

All i wanted was time..

Time.. 

to see you grow.

Time..

To see your smiles..your giggle..

Time!..

to learn all about you..

This picture was taken by: nilmdts, 

Conversations with the moon

She dances with the moon,

twinkles with the stars..

Her light guides us

Her love

Illuminates us.

I will ride the waves to support you....

My brother "Ghosty" wrote this to me..my heart weeped. So beautiful <3

...DueDate...heart break...

As the waves start...the thoughts come..if she continued to dance with me in this life..the one full of love..would we have gone into labour..the pain followed by complete joy..to hear her song flow from her beautiful lungs..to feel her warmth wrap around the whole room.

But then we face the reality..she was born to heaven..with wings and a halo waiting for her.. God gets to sing the song of unconditional love with her.. Find peace in that sweet beauty. Shes silent to my ears but one day soon she'll come sing with me.. 

*~{Miss you sweet angel KristaLeigh}~*

What does the most good?

Sitting on the shore of life..as waves hit my shore i have come to realize that if i sit here in my grief and get inundated, getting swept and pulled out, lost in the swells.. Barely breathing ..Who does that serve?.. It doesn't bring her back.. It takes me away from the ones i called loved. It limits me, hides my heart leaves me in this uncomfortable place. Where love gets distorted  -melancholy sets in .. So i face those moments.. I feel them i honour them.. I pull my self to the present.. I call it what it is..pain heartache tragedy ..but i always bring her beauty into the conversation..to remind us that she bonded to us she knows our voices..we told her all the way..that she is loved and wanted..we told her stories about papa and we introduced her to her  family through those stories.. She learnt their voices too..so i hold on to the light that it has created.. KristaLeigh wouldn't want us to get lost in the creeping darkness..so we keep moving foreward ..watching every wave..<3