...Fear...

"When Artist, write the soundtrack to your life"

I have been listening to this song since its release date..

 i have connected my grief to this song and using it as my anthem,

i was very selfish in my grief. 

i defended it. 

got mad when people wished it away for me..

i had to find the peace inside me..

she gave me this fortunate gift.. 

to love her,

as this storm is raging 

im chasing my rainbow..

to see color among the gray. 

swells..

the sways...

the fear...

but see...

we gotta move out of the fear of moving forward 

and thinking that we are forsaking our children..

let us seek peace.

let us seek solice

let us give our selves permission just to enjoy the moment again

the world crashed down once..

and we Rose again..

so .. know..

all you gotta do is get back up..

All rights goes to the original Artist.@blueoctoberband

Fear - Blue October

...I search for you everywhere...

...I Search for you Everywhere...

i search for you in the twilight of the morning...

as the stars fade into day...

I search for you in the designs of the clouds..

like art that i will never see you create...

I search for you in the song of the owls 

sharing their wisdom in their calls..

I search for you in the trees

as the wind dances in their branches.

I search for you over the ocean 

as the light dances on its surface..

I search for you when the sun kisses the Horizon

as the beautiful painting of colors...

yours is always Present.

I search for you in the Twilight

as the light kisses the dark..

for you Twinkle with the stars..

and dance with the moon..

I search for you...

EVERYWHERE.

(Picture taken : Parksville, BC)