sometimes the anger runs through my body with out being able to control the thoughts that come to my mind,

the urge to yell and scream are getting louder and more frequent.

when the moment you find that your life will forever be changed by a death of child..

new life.. you ask yourself 

"why god..why did you have to take her..

you let her choose us..

then..

you take her from us..

I'm So mad at you for the tease of a life time..

you took her away from us.."

in the same moment you have this utter peace inundate you every sense..

"..for her grace and love 

will forever be sitting 

at the right of gods feet..

She is apart of his Army of Angels.."

but you go back to being angry..

"She is Loved,

She was wanted,

 oh Lord, 

she was Ours!!."

†~*"..Let not your hearts be troubled.
Believe in God;
believe also in me.
In my Father's house are many rooms.
If it were not so,
would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you?
And if I go and prepare a place for you,
I will come again and will take you to myself,
that where I am
you may be also.
And you know the way to where I am going...”*~†
(John 14:1-4)