Right Here...

You are not with me

In flesh or bone..

But your spirit is

Right here

<3

Fights and chaos.

Its not always easy to communicate what i need and at times its even hard for your dad to hear those needs...we do our best to love one another through this tragic time away from you. We forget to be gentle with ourselves. And at times i have to remember he is mourning the loss of you. And at times i feel limited by that mourning also. I feel like i dont get the chance to have a quiet moment or a loud moment. The constant worry about it all is that i will just finally snap. And it will all be for nothing. And i dont want to get to that point. I need to create that space again where i can find "sanctuary" so i can find my sanity again. To center myself and ground my feet because my ledge is narrowing..im climbing..and at times im falling.. The anxiety overwhelms my mind and frantic sets in.. And as much as we want to honour our love for you by staying united and together.. At times we just need that "time to be with ourselves" but we find that distraction..or friction..and we collide and clash and bend..and the thunder rumbles and the lighting flashes the stormy skies in rage and hurt follows closely as the strikes hit our already scorched shores..wounds open wide that we so desperately want to scar over...We will see ourselves through this storm. i love you Krista Leigh Geniva Blue. <3